Posts Tagged ‘love’

Oh boy…or wait girl

I realize I haven’t posted in awhile…its partly because there are so many thoughts swimming around in my head.

First I guess I should share….

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Yep TB is forever out numbered. He also will always be the Prince Charming of the house for 1 lady, 2 girls, and sweet Indy dog.

We are at the 18 week mark and MK is coming in later this week for our next U/S. I still at times can’t believe this is really happening. I am beyond the moon excited. I am scared too. 10 years later I am doing this all over again…sleepless nights, schedules, dependency. I am going to love every single minute of it- but Oh #$*#&$#!!!!

10 years has also changed the baby industry. Now there are like a zillion types of strollers..wheel rotating iPhone chargers included (seriously with the latest iOS update I am going to need it) and then you can pick your colors blue or pink…gone are the neutrals. Oh and baby delivery services- diapers, formula, you name it. And not just that but seasonal diapers so even on the Fourth of July Baby B’s tush can be coordinated!

Registering is going to be interesting.

I also this time have such a different world. An amazing partner in crime that I know will carry his share. I already see the moments where we both are there mesmerized at what a precious little gift we have (times 2) …and a wonderful 2nd in charge that is going to be right there to help but also need reassurance that she still has a special place in our hearts.

I am a lucky girl to have such problems.

So while I sit on this plane I will research more strollers while my 2 loves are enjoying a date night at the ballpark!

A heartbeat goes up and down

TB is the more cautious one. He keeps his excitement in check so he doesn’t have the big crash of disappointment. I keep my emotions on my sleeves- big swings with the highs and big drops with the lows.

Today was one of those days.

The maybe baby is the size of a blueberry and today we got our first peek.

First results. The up. We have a heartbeat. Fluttering away per the K’s. Heartbeat was 134. That was good and the growth and development was good as well.

Then there was the down. A small subchorionic hemorrhage. Now putting small in front of that just makes me laugh…small blah blah something horrible sounding.

Down the roller coaster I went and straight to google. For once google relaxed me a little bit…it wasn’t has scary as it sounded.

Then we waited to hear back from the fertility clinic, because 7 weeks is early for an ultrasound in the normal pregnancy world and maybe they had other insights.

I have to say when the email came back and the clinic said this is actually pretty common my roller coaster settled down a bit.

Now we wait. 10 more days. Jan 13 for the next ultrasound.

We wait for another win.

We wait for this to be moved over to the normal pregnancy category.

We wait for MK to be able to exercise again.

We wait for MK to stop having to take all the meds helping maybe baby along.

We wait until it feels safer.

We wait until we can go from maybe baby to baby B.

Patience.

We are getting an amazing gift. No one ever said it would be easy, nothing worth anything usually is.

So we wait. We practice patience. We let maybe baby settle in for hopefully the long haul.

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2014. No resolutions. Just words

So I have never been one for new year’s resolutions. I mean I always find it funny to see how full the gym is for the first month of the year and then it slows down and goes back to normal by Feb. Life changes aren’t made for resolutions…you have to make changes and any day is a good day to start those.

However I do love the thought of having words for the next year. I tried to think of just one word but I couldn’t pick just one.

My words for 2013 are Love. Live. Simplify. Celebrate. Slow down. Enjoy.

Love.

Our life is full of love and I just want that to continue and grow. I see love in the simple moments that go through the day. When TB manages to bring a smile and laugh to MB when tears are trying to take over. When we are snuggled up on the couch and content. Our house is built on love and 2014 just needs to keep it going.

Live.

Life is precious. There are so many moments worth living. You have to embrace it. You have to take risks at times. You have ups and downs. But that is life. At the end of the day you just have to live in the moment and let it take you on the journey. I am ready to live the journey of 2014.

Simplify.

We move at warp speed. There are a zillion decisions, choices, things to do, places to go. My goal in 2014 is to simplify. Focus on the big hits. Don’t get caught up in the everyday craziness. Take time to live and love.

Celebrate.

We have so much to celebrate. I am thankful for everything we have been blessed with. I am grateful for my family, my friends, my job, my home, my life. We will celebrate all that it has brought us and will bring us in 2014.

Slow down.

Sometimes things just move to fast. Sometimes you just go through the motions. Every once in awhile I step back and let MB run the show. Those are some of the most amazing moments. The thrill and excitement of her knowing she is in charge. The simple way in which we enjoy skipping through the park. Laughing at the silly things we are doing. Slowing down and enjoying the moment. In 2014 I want to do that more often and make it more the way of life than the exception. Life goes fast enough I want to slow down and enjoy the moment.

Enjoy.

Laugh. Dance. Sing. Be silly. Be goofy. Enjoy every moment. We will love each other. We will live our lives. We will celebrate each moment. We will slow down and enjoy all that 2014 has in store.

So those are my words for 2014. Those are my goals.

2013 has been a year of new beginnings. A year of living, loving and celebrating.

2014 we are ready to embrace you!

 

2 weeks

It’s been two weeks since one of the best days of my life! (The other being Mb’s birth!)

I’m still living in the moment of how perfect it all was. There is not one thing I would do differently.

From start to finish everything was wonderful. I’ve got memories to last a lifetime. I’ve married the love of my life. I’ve given my daughter the best daddy she could ever imagine.

Now it’s back to reality…

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Camping for 9

We had our first tent camping (well any real camping) for my Brownie Troop this weekend.

This was a jam packed weekend so I have to admit I wasn’t too thrilled at this being in the mix.

However once we actually got there that all changed.

MB was so excited as we packed our bags and put together our mess kits.

We arrived and setup camp…the older girls had set up a couple tents for us so it wasn’t to hard to get settled though seeing the campsite was on gravel was a little unnerving.

After 30min of card games the girls were called over by their middle and high school PAs to begin the activities. Now for the next 5 hours us moms sat in the shade and marveled that the girls never came back over to see us, there were no arguments, no issues. We joined them for cooking eclairs- wow impressive what you can make on an open fire :P….and got little glimpses of them learning knife safety, how to pitch a tent, cooking, swap making, etc.

After 5 hours they came back to camp for about 30-45 min before dinner…the girls all went into their tents/shades and played UNO.

Then it was time for Tacos in a bag. Not a single complaint about food….group think we decided :). One girl said it was the best thing she had in 3 years…which of course I passed on to her mom the next morning.

Dinner, clean-up then time for campfire songs…the giggles and laughter was infectious. Smores sealed up the night and you can’t do anything to screw that up. Back to bed and with the normal noise and settling down we settled in for the night.

At some point across the tent MB exclaimed “mommy I love you”….which I took for thank you for a wonderful day and for being the one closest to the tent opening. I had to laugh when I saw the girls had set up my sleeping bag…sweet or strategy for positioning. I dread the day when she thinks saying I love you where everyone can hear is not cool…I relish it now!!!

I have no clue how much sleep I actually got…but at one point MB woke up and was cold and I told her to come get in the sleeping bag with me…seriously I couldn’t think of anything better than being snuggled in close with that sweet thing. She swears she didn’t sleep but I can attest to the fact that she was zonked out for the rest of the night minus when I leaned on her hair….our other tent mate had to get dressed warmer in the middle of the night which I had prepared for and then it was sunrise and the night was over.

We of course had to race home to quickly shower and become presentable for the soccer end of year party. Fun to see all the smiling faces and I loved that MB just wanted to dribble the ball around- she really does have a love for the game.

While the moms talked my little one came over to show me something on the jungle gym…I have to say it was sweet to walk across the grass and have her show me how she could climb to the top – so proud and quite happy to have her mommy there to share it with. I spent the next 15min with the girls on the swing set loving that just as much as sitting with the moms…never forgot that watching from afar sometimes is just not the same.

This weekend was totally her weekend — everything on the agenda was hers and actually sitting back and watching her might have been the best thing I needed tooo.

Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!!!

Setting expectations

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Flowers.

When was the first time you got flowers? Do you remember?

I know MB will remember. Tonight wasn’t the first time but the face and smiles were just as special.

Her lovebug gets her flowers. The father daughter dance, valentines day…this year he surprised with gorgeous orange flowers. Her favorite color.

The look. The love. The quick hurry to put together a quick scavenger hunt for her valentine.

He is setting the right expectations. And I love him more and more each day!

Raising a runner

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We have been “training” every Thursday night. MB and I do our girl talk runs and sometimes tb joins us…soccer has definitely increased her endurance.

So this morning we got up at 6:30 and put on our ladybug uniforms and headed to fountain hills for the iron girl 5k.

We had so many laughs and giggles trying to stay warm, hiding our cowbell, and getting ready for the race.

Before the start we sang the national anthem to the flags at half mast. MB leaned into me, my arm around her, tears in my eyes. I’m so blessed. I don’t know how those who have lost are waking up in these dark days, my heart aches for them. I appreciated the moment and took a deep breath.

Time to run. MB was strong for the first mile, especially up hill. After that we walked for maybe 10 seconds and were off again. She was keeping her eye on the other little ones and I would notice a burst of competitive energy when anyone got to close..it was a great race, no complaints. My favorite was toward the end when I heard her talking to herself, pushing herself…then we saw the finish and it was a sprint to the end.

We finished with a 32:32 time, Mb placed 3rd in her age group, and our mother-daughter team was 9th out of 76 or so….not too bad!

Now she is asking for another one soon…..I’ve got a runner.

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Don’t sweat the small stuff

This week is just one of those crazy weeks being pulled in every direction but you make your way through it….till I was thrown a curve ball.

Have you ever gotten a call from a friend and your heart just breaks?

They are going through tough times, you want to reach through the phone and give them a hug.

You wish you lived closer you wish you could help more but it is their problem to deal with.

You struggle for the right thing to say…or worry that saying what comes to mind might not help.

You want to make it all go away.

This week I got one of those calls.

I hurt for her.

I cried for her tonight.

I pray it all works out for the best but I just hate that she is in the place she is now…and I hope it won’t be for long.

It reminds me to not to sweat the small stuff.

I get frustrated.

I get stressed.

Life has it’s moments, there are always ups and downs, something to work on…but I know I am really lucky.

I have it pretty good.

I am not alone.

I am part of a wonderful team.

I am thankful for that.

 

Getting the shot

So I had a great day with my girl, my best friend, and my godson.

I was determined to leave with a photo of my godson and I.

Ahh what we do to get that smile! And yes I am just as happy as I look what a wonderful way to wrap up my week.

Next stop….HOME!

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technology rocks

I miss my girl….and it is only a few more days till we are all back together again.

I can’t imagine what the time apart would be like if we didn’t have webcam. It’s so great to see her face, giggle, laugh, and just send love over the web.

Last night we had one of those totally goofy webcams that keeps my heart warm for hours afterwards….sometimes when we are on the computer together I swear it is just like looking in a mirror back in time.

 

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