Last night I did a really bad thing.
The bloating, the insomnia, the anxiety, the emotional roller-coaster.
I knew it had to be due to the Lupron but I wanted to make sure. I also wanted to see what was coming when I added the next hormone shot (Follistim) Monday.
So I did a bad thing. I googled it.
Thank you google and the internet.
I confirmed that Lupron wrecks havoc on your. For some so bad that they stopped the IVF cycle as they just couldn’t handle it…so I am thankful that it wasn’t that bad…at least not yet.
I confirmed that the bloating is just going to get worse.
I confirmed that my roller coaster of emotions is about to take another big doozey of a drop.
I knew I should stop reading it was making me more and more anxious, but I didn’t. I kept reading.
Reading about people that were on their 4th or 5th cycle. Reading about the challenges the struggles the sadness. It made me again so thankful for MB. The impact and struggles of infertility just makes me so sad.
I know at the end of the road there is great hope and possibilities and so I don’t like to complain. I can handle this. Even when TB comes out me with the huge Follistim Pen this morning looking just as freaked as I did…we can do this. We have 16 or so days, maybe less I hope. We can do this!
And just for fun here is a photo of the Follistim Pen…I have to say I am glad they did the training I was able to assembled it and dial it in like a pro the first time this morning and we went down from 20 to 5 units of Lupron so maybe tonight I will be able to sleep!!!